“There came a time when the effort to remain tight in the bud was greater than the risk it took to blossom.”
2011 has been a phenomenal year thus far. Through the ups and downs, I’ve had a budding awareness that the time for change has arrived. Whatever it is that comes next… it’s fast approaching. I can either be ripped limb from limb trying to cling to what was or I can let go and welcome what is with open arms. Those are my options.
Of course, I have the marvelous good fortune to be a human being in these times. And what distinguishes the humans from the rest of Creation? We can choose. We have free will and the ability to make choices. So, I affirm that I choose to let go, to welcome change, to dive into the flow, to be One with what is. That’s my right. Isn’t it miraculous?
In fact, it has been nearly a year and a half since this awareness first began to dawn in me. I had the distinct feeling that the world was going crazy and I was going with it. It was a critical point in my growth- I didn’t know what to do, but I knew that I could no longer do what I had been doing. I had already been practicing yoga for a decade at that point, but I was drawn to its spiritual aspects more than ever before. I began meditating daily. In short, I began to align with the Divine. If there is a resonating message that accompanied this shift, it is this: Whatever it is I wish to be, I am already that. Each day, I must make time to sit in that awareness and let it bring me understanding.
You see, ‘change’ has so many associations in my busy, busy brain. Transition- like breakups, passings, leaps into the terrifying and bewildering unknown. Yet, the more I stay with the I am that awareness, I realize that this ‘change’ isn’t so much about the rupture as it is about the healing- like waking up from a dream and realizing that I was completely safe the entire time. This is the emerging oneness consciousness. Where there was once a split, oneness consciousness is rising to swallow both sides and reunify them. Unifying perception with reality. I am that. All is that. All is love.
So that’s a lot, huh? It’s been a great distance to cover, but it has also been a single leap of faith taken over and over. One of the greatest blessings along the way has been connecting with kindred souls whose experiences resonate with mine. I have certainly had moments when I’ve felt that I must be an alien or a hopeless weirdo or something. And then I’ll find myself in the midst of a whole garden of strange flowers just like me. As we exchange words with one another, I hear I am that, I am that. I feel so blessed to be sharing this evolution with you. I have so much to share. I hope, to you, it sounds a whole lot like I am that. ((((((( ♥ )))))))